he came to my house in the middle of the night and wrote a note which he left on my wall saying why he loves me.

unfortunately i didn’t manage to stay awake otherwise i could have seen him and got a kiss etc, but he waited half an hour then went home. 

i woke up this morning to an inbox on Facebook telling me he had been outside and that he’d left this note on the wall.

i rushed down the stairs, falling as i went and bolted out the front door to find it in case it had fallen off or anything, and it was just sitting there. 

and i was so overwhelmed with joy right that second. i was looking at the note, like wow he was here, and put this here for me. i can’t fully handle it.

it’s the most romantic thing anyone has eve done for me.

i just wish i’d been awake.

for gods sake why wasn’t i awake.

i love him so much.

When stoned, the entire world is beautiful

Sat around waiting for chris all day,
Totally wasted sunday, he hasn’t even messaged me.
Next time he says we’ll do something at the weekend, I won’t hold him to it

Nice night at Tom’s with biology practice papers, chilled ~

Sometimes I wonder if happiness and love exist

I need chris. Now

Chris is cooking cheese and bean toasties. Awhhhhh cute.

I hate myself for giving in every fucking time.
Now I can’t sleep cause I need to cry

Buggar off

it’s so tiring

and i really cba

and he’s so rude and blunt with me

i wanna tell him to fuck off most o fthe time

but then he won’t answer

cause he’s ridiculous.

he starts these arguments then doesn’t want to resolve them

it’s fucking annoying.

he was like  ” can you go to bed please, i really don’t wanna talk”

well sorry i forgot the world revolves around what you do or don’t want

go take MD tomorrow without caring what i think of you doing it

moan at me 24/7 cause you’re convinced you’re always right

tell me i never listen to you even though i take in every fucking piece of shit issue you have with how i live my life

fuck it

Watching old videos of me and cheyenne omfg am actually crying ahahahah

How decent of you.
I truly give up on people.
Making an effort is not worth the backlash of humans

The storm makes me feel alone

Chris’s phone has been dead for hours and I’ve sent him bare bbms and urghhh this is fucking shit because I’m so paranoid idek why, I mean he said he was monging in bed, and then his phone died and he text me off some random number, but if he was at home why couldn’t he just charge his phone?????????
Because its making me think things, things that would give people the idea I don’t trust him….. Well after certain things, maybe I should be a little suspicious but he promised me he wouldn’t ever cheat on me etc etc and I believee him. But you can’t help the way the thought just bugs your mind. And it hurts my head because I love him. I want his arms round me now. Fuck.